I recently saw a quote that has been sitting with me for awhile. “Man surprised me most about humanity. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present. The result being that he does not live in the present or the future. He lives as if he is never going to die and then dies having never really lived.”
Money has always been an issue with me. Always afraid of where it’s going to come from and if it is going to run out. The fear is very deeply rooted and has been hard to shake. I have to admit it has clouded my choices on many occasions. Living your passion and not worrying about where the money will come has never been on my radar. This quote, for as powerful as it is, it is still, well, words. And putting my thinking to emotion in order to really believe it and live by it is what has been the most difficult part for me.
Bali will be the tip of the iceberg. I finally made the conscious decision to change it up. It is definitely uncharted waters for me and I have to admit not quite sure how it will play out. I know I will come back with new ideas just for being in a different environment. I want to know, not just in words but in actions that the universe is ready to take care of me. I want to trust it will.
I want to believe that humanity, for the most part, is good and kind. People want to help and make others happy. I won’t believe that being evil really makes anyone feel better. So when I hear of an injustice or act of violence I can’t comprehend how someone could act that way. I believe that, yet again, too much information, especially negative information, leads to an unhappy collective.
I know there is important information that needs to get out to keep me informed about my well being. I have found beautiful stories of how humanity has come to the aid of the less fortunate whether it be from man made or natural disasters. And I find I want to hear more of those stories. I want to believe that if I continue to be inundated by positive occurrences that I will be less judgmental and more patient. Yes, gentler and more kind.
I believe that humanity needs more of those actions. And it really does start with me.